I'm Proof

I try to keep my blog posts short. You are busy my pretty friend and I am HONORED you take the time out of your day to read what I have to say and I try to be respectful of that. That being said - I have a feeling this will be my longest post yet because I don't think I can shorten it up.
I remember the exact moment I started this blog in 2010. To get to that day I need to take you back in time a bit to the point I was so low I didn't want to get up in the morning. I would wake , but lay in bed as long as I possibly could not opening my eyes because when I did , I had to face the day. Face myself . Face my life. It was a dark time ... my marriage failing , my weight increasing ... my soul dying.  I didn't take care of myself, my home, my marriage. There was NO PRETTY in my life. I lost it.
I wouldn't wish that feeling on anyone.
What did I do to pull out of that? I started reading positive books , I started calling friends , started taking care of myself , started a business, just STARTED doing something . It was not easy . But I PROMISE YOU... it can be done. I could go on and on and on about this - Years of losing myself and my pretty can't be wrapped up in a paragraph or a blog post.
When I started my blog in April 2010 - I felt myself dipping my toe in the water of that dark place. NO... I wasn't going back there.
I started the blog with absolutely no plan. No goals. Just me writing.
That has changed.
WHO  in the world would have thought - the blog would turn into a book? Not me. A book has been a dream of mine my entire life. But , that was just that A DREAM.  DREAMS COME TRUE my friend.
WHO would have thought that woman years ago lying in bed dreading the day , wishing I would not wake up because it was so painful to face my day. I am ashamed to tell you that . I am not ashamed to tell you that out of pride. I am ashamed to tell you that because so many of you have it so much worse than I ever had . I was depressed . I was miserable . I didn't want to go on living .
So , I tell you from the bottom of my heart and soul - I know what it is like to LOSE my PRETTY.
Because PRETTY is a happy life. Pretty is a content life. Pretty is in your soul. I feel prettier with lipstick on . I feel pretty when I write to you .I feel pretty when I do something for V. I feel pretty when I clean my bathroom, I feel pretty when I help a friend.  PRETTY goes deep.
I have been struggling with where to go with this BRING PRETTY BACK crusade of mine.
I have prayed & had some long talks with God. It  has felt like a one sided conversation.  I kept talking .  I saw this and I said Ok God ... counsel me. And I trust he will.
 I copied it and I taped it to my computer
I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you with my eye upon you.
psalm 32:8

Richard Bach in his book Illusions says this
" WE TEACH BEST WHAT WE NEED TO LEARN"
I need to learn how to bring and keep pretty in my life , so I have decided to teach.
I say this to you with tears in my eyes -
That is why I believe the book has been written. And I need to do more.
I have decided to teach BRING PRETTY BACK workshops.
Why tears ??? Because I feel with every thing in me that the reason I went through the darkness, was because I was meant to teach - LIFE CAN BE PRETTY.  YOU ARE  PRETTY.
Not perfect , not without troubles ... PRETTY.
I'm proof.  And with Gods counsel , I will teach you.